Mardy Fish Can Relate to What Naomi Osaka Is Going Through

The fourth-round singles matches on the U.S. Open had been underway on Sunday, and Mardy Fish, the Davis Cup captain and former tennis star, was remembering the second 9 years in the past in New York when he sat within the automobile sobbing along with his spouse, Stacey, and determined, along with her assist, that he couldn’t play within the fourth spherical towards Roger Federer.

“It was just crazy anxiety, crazy, crazy, just how am I going to walk out on this court?” he stated by phone from his dwelling in Los Angeles. “But it never, never would have crossed my mind, if my wife wasn’t there with me, that I wouldn’t play. We’re so trained to never show weakness, never show fear, to the other side of the court. But my wife saying, ‘Well, you don’t have to play’ — that part right there was like, right away, just instantly, I felt better, like a weight was lifted off my shoulders.”

Fish is now 39, a mother or father with Stacey of two younger youngsters. He works in finance and continues to be concerned in skilled tennis because the U.S. Davis Cup captain. But he’s additionally a mentor, sharing his expertise as a outstanding athlete who had to cope with psychological well being issues when the topic was shut to taboo in skilled sports activities.

“The reason why I’m so vocal or open about it now is that I didn’t have that success story to lean on when I was going through it,” he stated.

He is pleasant with Naomi Osaka and her agent Stuart Duguid, and empathized when Osaka introduced tearfully on Friday after her third-round defeat on the U.S. Open that she deliberate to take an indefinite break from the sport that now not brings her pleasure, even when she wins.

“I would tell her, do whatever makes you happy,” Fish stated. “She doesn’t have to hit another tennis ball the rest of her life, and if that makes her happy, that’s what she should do. I think she would regret that, but it’s whatever makes her want to get up in the morning and be happy. And whatever she’s been doing for the last couple months, or however long it’s been, is not doing that for her right now. So hopefully she finds peace and comfort.”

Fish spent months housebound with repeated nervousness assaults after his withdrawal in New York. He acquired remedy and drugs.

After enjoying intermittently on tour, he returned to the U.S. Open in 2015 and received a spherical. It was the upbeat closure that he desired and is a part of the journey he shares in a documentary that will probably be launched on Tuesday as a part of the Netflix “Untold” collection.

“To educate is really the most important thing,” Fish stated. “To try to reach people that have never understood mental health or had issues with it or people around them who have had issues with it. To just educate them and just understand that Naomi Osaka is not going to pull out of the French Open just because she doesn’t want to talk to the press. And Simone Biles is not going to compete in the Olympics just because she doesn’t want to lose. The people that think that, and there are lots of them, it’s just unfortunate.”

For Fish, one of many keys is to cease concerning psychological well being as separate from bodily well being.

“It’s just health,” Fish stated. “They call it mental health, but your brain is part of your body. It’s an injury. You just can’t see it.”

Long thought-about one of the vital proficient gamers of his period, Fish improved his health and broke by means of in 2011 to attain the highest 10 and qualify for the eight-man tour championships. But he stated his rise additionally created new expectations and stresses.

“My life changed, for the better initially, and then just my body and brain, the way I’m put together, couldn’t handle it,” he stated.

In 2012, he started experiencing a racing heartbeat that may wake him in the course of the evening and was recognized as a type of arrhythmia. Though he was handled for the situation, the underlying difficulty was an nervousness dysfunction, and whereas enjoying tennis was a refuge, he additionally started experiencing panic throughout his third-round win over Gilles Simon on the 2012 U.S. Open.

“It was like my only comfort was taken away from me that night and it put me into basically rock bottom, zero serotonin left in my brain,” he stated.

“It’s not about being tough. I practice kickboxing and muay Thai right now, like, come on, I’ll take anyone on in the ring. You can punch me in the face all you want, and I’ll hit you back. I train that stuff. It’s not about being weak. I was strong mentally. I was a bulldog. To win, I would have sacrificed anything. I’ll put my competitiveness up against anyone’s. It’s not about that. It’s actually the opposite. Showing weakness and that vulnerability is actually showing strength, in my opinion.”

Fish is working as a mentor through the U.S. Open as a part of a brand new initiative from the United States Tennis Association to present extra psychological well being sources for gamers, together with on-call psychologists. Claudia Reardon, the usT.A.’s new psychological well being marketing consultant, is overseeing this system.

Mardy Fish walked off the courtroom after dropping to Feliciano López in 5 units on the 2015 U.S. Open.Credit…Chang W. Lee/The New York Times

“Athletes who talk about their own use of mental health resources or their own struggles with mental health symptoms or disorders really do a wonderful service to sport in general in terms of demystifying and normalizing that experience,” Reardon stated in an interview. “To have mental health symptoms is not incompatible with high-level sports, and it’s actually a sign of strength to reach out for help.”

Fish stated no participant had but contacted him through the event, however he stated “tons of people” had contacted him since he started talking brazenly about his situation.

“People you’ve heard of; people you’ve never heard of,” he stated. “Coaches, players, from tennis and other sports. It’s been really nice to be helpful in that way. I’ve made some great relationships because of it, so it’s been comforting in that way, to know I wasn’t alone and that other people wanted to be vulnerable as well, just not to the world.”

Osaka, like Fish, has taken a extra open strategy, revealing this 12 months that she struggled with nervousness and despair since profitable her first Grand Slam singles title on the 2018 U.S. Open. In a round-table dialogue earlier than this 12 months’s Open, she, Fish, Nick Kyrgios and Billie Jean King talked about a number of subjects, together with psychological well being and media relations.

Though Osaka spoke earlier than and through the Open about her need to deal with the positives of being a world-class participant, she struggled along with her feelings in her loss on Friday to the Canadian teenager Leylah Fernandez. She tossed her racket and knocked a ball into the stands in frustration after which teared up at a information convention. She stated she didn’t know when she would play her subsequent tennis match.

“Recently, when I win, I don’t feel happy,” she stated. “I feel more like relief. And then when I lose, I feel very sad, and I don’t think that’s normal.”

Fish was watching and listening.

“That last press conference was her being really open,” he stated. “I think it’s really important to put yourself first and what you feel is important to you and what makes you happy, and hopefully tennis is in there for her. I think it is. I know she understands her place in history. But the stuff outside the court has now gotten to her more than just wins and losses, and it’s unfortunate, but it’s important for her to make sure she feels comfortable again and happy again.”